Painful Hurts

It hurts.
It hurts like hell.

To release,
To let go,
To recover,
Neither one is the easiest thing to do.

Tears shed,
No one knows,
but He knows.
Let my prayers keep you.
Even though it is in the most silence place.
Cause He knows better.

12/05

Yes or No?

Yes, i like you
But, it seems so impossible

Is it love?
No it's not

Good thing i've moved on
After ages

And now
I am alone

You'll never know what is awaiting you.

It is just not the time yet. Maybe. Just gotta keep myself busy with something else.

I've lost my will. Gotta keep moving.

Can't look back cause there will be nothing awaits you.

Just look forward for what is waiting for you.

Ipoh City Wanderer

Hi. Basically i Went to Bandar Ipoh on Sunday which is on the 25th May 2014. So called a wanderer. But, i wasnt alone for sure. It was all planned by Kak Lydia, Asnym, Adeeb and Ajik. Zakee from my batch was following also.

The night before, kak Lydia gave me a call at 12 am to ask me wether i want to join them to go to Pasar Karat or not. And my answer will obivously be YES. We reached there at about 9 am. I was overslept actually. I wouldn't have been awake if Adeeb didn't call me. It was already 7.34 at that time. Not as promised, he promised to fetch me and Zakee at 7 early in the morning. It is because i stayed up late until 3 am. Just to finish my group assignment. My mistake. I know. I felt so embarassed with myself. Ergh. Then i said sorry hoping for everything would be fine.

Pasar Karat was really an interesting place. From the name itself, what would be the first thing that comes across your mind? Rusted steel? Hahaha no way. It is simply like a flea market or Pasar Tani if you ever been to any. Well i love to go to these places. Leather bags, shoes, clothes, CDs and cassetes. Oh not no forget, antique stuffs! The only thing that catches my eyes a lot is the leather handbags!. Eventhough those are not new stuff but still, they are in a good condition. And the prices are also reasonable. And worth buying of course! Try to go once. You wont be losing anything except for money maybe. Haha. Oh i bought a sling canvas+knitted bag only for rm 5. Really worth buying!

So next we went to plan B. Since Ajik need to go there to finish up his project. Kak Lydia showed me this one path / lane which is the backside of the shoplots. Good things about the shoplots here in Ipoh is, it still maintains the locality, heritage since the British clonizer came here. The structure of the buildings still strong and beautiful.
Not only plan B, lots of cafe shop and restaurant in one row that display uniqeness of their own cafe. They are Burps &Giggles, Buku Tiga Lima amd Missing Marbles. I love each of the shops concept that jave made me admire those so much. Lots of handmade stuff like the lamps, chandelier and chairs. So the menu boards. I super loved them. It makes me want to redecorate my room. We went to each of the shops my we ate at the Burps and Giggles.
We decided not to eat at Plan B because it is a little bit pricey. But at Burps & Giggles, the price is quite reasonable. Like me, ive ordered Fish and Chips which costs RM 16 with Watermelon Apple - Rm 12. Same goes to Ajik except for the drink, he ordered lime water. And Lydia ordered chicken burgerfor rm 12. And the taste was good. No regrets. Oh but dont provide chilli sauce. So bring by your own. Haha. I can say, we ate peacefully.

Loads of photograph taken. I really love the place. Really a cool place to hangout with friends and family of course. This would be my first time but not the last i certainly sure. Wish to go here with my girls and my parents. InshaaAllah.

Uncertain

Dalam perbuatan
Langkah
Hati
Tak pasti

Tindak tanduk perlakuan boleh terkeluar jangkaan
Manusia kan.

Dua watak satu jasad.
Tak dapat nak teka
Tak pasti mana satu
Yang pelik, yang jelik
Tiada yang baik
Semuanya tak pasti.

Bingung dengan hati
Otak,  badan jadi mangsa
Abaikan seboleh bolehnya
Tolak jauh jauh

Antara penat dan sabar

Dalam tunggu memang ada penat
Penat yang sangat
Pedih
Lama
Sabar kena banyak tapi tak tahan

Selagi boleh tunggu, tunggulah
Selagi boleh saba, sabarlah
Belum tentu benda yang kita tunggu akan dapat
Kalau takdir kata ya, ya lah maknanya
Kalau tak, takkan juga

Penat akan berbaloi,
Kalau sabar
Kalau gelabah, takkan dapat yang sempurna

Dalam tunggu memang penat tapi akan berbaloi kalau sabar.

TUNGGU

Takkan penat 
Akan ku tunggu

Kau kata kau tak sedia
Akan ku sabar 
Tunggu

Tidak mengapa lama
Asal kau mampu untuk kata
Kau suka aku

Seluruh anggota sekata mengaku
Bukan mulut semata
Aku tunggu.

By:
Nadhirahakim

New Resolutions Huh?

Well yes. Old stories? Haha.
I love going through all the diaries i wrote. When i mentioned 'diaries', i have more than one. I just love to write eventhough sometimes, it is just nothing. But simply hi, hello, i wanna share something today, a girl's crush, him, or whatever. I realised that i love talking to myself. Lot more to be written down, but i am just too lazy or maybe i don't have appropriate time to do so. Alasan semua tu. Hahaha okay.

Went through some of my diaries. Actually, i started writing since i was in primary school, but i didn't have a proper one since i was still 'small' that time. Okay whatever. So, i just got to find diaries from secondary school and also during my 1st semester. Not forgetting, notebooks also. I have wrote a lot. I might say it is ridicolous, useless and well can be considered as losers too. Haha

I just love to do those thing. Thta is why i rather to keep things ( anything) instead of throwing them away. Well, i have that habit since like forever. No matter how unimportant it is. Simple example, like the receipts in my purse. Whenever i went buy things or eat, i'll keep the receipts or bills until they make my purse fat. Then, when the clean-up-purse time comes, i'll take those out and keep it in another place. Not throwing but keeping it. And i will keep repeating that until forever. Don't be surpise if one day, i will say that my hobby is collecting receipts. Haha. I know it is kind of unnecessary but it is just me.

Because i always have in mind is that, every each of things, is meaningful. No matter how small it is. Whatever it is made of. I'll keep it.
I am the type, who holds on so much in memories. Well i hate that in some ways. And always overthinking over something. Which i am not supposed to. Haihh.

But as for my new year's resolution, and since i am turning 20 ( a big number ya knoww) , i should really make something good happen to me. Something that is never happened before and going to happen soon. TWENTY is not a small number indeed. Lotsa things need to be done, solved and changed! No more procrastination please. Please. I beg myself! Not like before, i have promised to myself a lot of things. But it was all LIES. But i know, this time, it is going to be different as i am going into another level of life. No more a teenager. Together we are hoping into a better person and life.

Whatever i write here, it is just what i have in my mind. Not thinking of gaining more followers or whatever. It is me and my stories. Like it or not , it is all up to you!
Toodles for now.

REMINISCE #Archidinner

Assalamualaikum. How's your days going so far ? Mine, not that good. A lot of struggles. Ups and downs in just a month. This semester is not that good actually. Semester 3 is actually the beginning of the real world of architecture. Previously, sem 1 and 2 were just a foundation year. Also lots of struggle but in a fun way. Now, we're getting more serious in what architecture is all about.

Well, i am not that good in telling stories but yeah. But just living my page the way i like. Really wanted to update frequently but i just don't have appropriate time to type and everything. Hehe sorry.

Recently, just few days back, here we go again, ARCHIDINNER! But this time i am not anymore the NYDP of course hahahhaha. ( Sorry, i just miss being the NYDP for the archidinner - SERENE -last semesters's, which was INCREDIBLY AWESOME). It is the students from Semester 2 that has to be the organizer for the dinner. The dinner was at D Hotel.

It was kinda okay. Not that grand. But considering, the small numbers of them. It's good. The hotel was fine. Nice. Since it is still new. We even booked two rooms to stay. Hahah. So that there's no need to rush right after the dinner is done. Haha. I know it's kind of gedik but who cares. Oh yea, back to the dinner part. The theme was REMINISCE - which means 'imbau kembali' old times- mengenang kembali like that la. Hhe. And we were supposed to wear RETRO attire. But, i didn.t even follow the theme. I simply wore a blouse with a maxi skirt. More to Arabian night actually.  Haha but whatever. So, the main purpose of today's blogging is actually to post pictures! The part that i love the most! p/s : Some are edited but some aren't. Hihi

 Meet Widad Azhar. My roommate since Semester 1!

 My attire for that night. Blouse from Nichii and Skirt from Calaqisya!

Meet Fatin Noordin!

With Izuan

 From left : Izzaty , Naimi , Atikah and Me

 With my girls!

Purdygals

With le 07 senior. Arif Asyraf and Nazimuddin :)

 Cool people they are!

my overly-attached-so-called-cousin, Anis Fatini :)

That's all for now i guess. Toodles!

Assalamualaikum

Wuish. Lama sangaaaaaat dah tak update blog. Last update was in May. And now, it is already October and even reaching November dah. How time flies. Masa kecik kecik dulu takdalah rasa cepat masa ni berlalu. Sekarang baru rasa. Maknanya dah tua lah aku ni. Anyways, blog tak update, bukanlah maksudnya aku duduk diam je kan. Busy lah tu. Haha. Archi student lah katakan. Puii ~

Well well, banyak sangat event dah jadi sepanjang 4 bulan ni. Tapi, untuk mengupdate semuanya pada satu masa memang mustahil lah. So, just nak bertanya khabar kalian semua. Rindu saya ke ? (Padahal, readers, satu kerat pun tak sampai) . Aku buat blog ni, bukan sebab saja saja nak ada ataupun nak menunjuk. Tapi, akau rasa suka menulis dan ingin share sama kalian semua. Tak salah kan? Yang salahnya sebab jarang update. Haihh. Maaflah.

Aku start semester 3 dah, maksudnya, this is my second year of studying Architecture. Alhamdulillah. I can't believe that i am already in the 2nd year. I sustained and survived! But still longgggg way to go until sem 8. Hahaha poyo nyaa. Apa apa pun. Syukur. Doa mama papa dan orang sekeliling yang penting. Terima kasih.

Kalau nak banyak banyak update. Instagram sama itu twitter lah. Everyday update. Hehehe. Jomlah post gambar sikit. 

Lokasi: Warisan Puan, Melaka

Balik raya haji hari tu pun sempat lagi kan. Haihh. Oh tu je lah kot. By the way, please remind me to update about DUALISMA , SERENE and some love stories perhaps. Hihi

Bye. Assalamualaikum

Pendam

Banyak benda dalam dunia ni yang kita tak boleh nak lepas cakap sesuka hati. Tapi, kalau pendam kita pula yang sakit. Nak buat macam mana, hukum dunia tak bagi.

Kita bergaduh dengan seseorang. Tak puas hati dengan seseorang, nak je kita lepaskan semua isi hati kita tapi, tak boleh. Susah. Payah.

Kita kena marah. Disalahkan. Padahal, kita takda niat pun nak buat. Nak jelaskan, dianggap melawan. Payah.

Kita menangis. Sorang-sorang. Bukan orang tahu. Sakitnya. Payah.

Menjerit. Untuk puaskan hati. Walaupun kita tahu, ianya takkan menyelesaikan sesusatu masalah tapi hanya melegakan diri sendiri. 

Tapi, itu sudah cukup. Sayang diri kita. Jangan biar dia terbeban. Jerit, nangislah sepuas hati. Lebih baik dari memberontak.

Masalah, masalah , masalah.

ASSIGNMENT, ASSIGNMENT, ASSIGNMENT!

Stress. 

Tapi, aku selalu cakap dengan diri aku 'Just follow the flow'.

Supaya diri aku sendiri tak tertekan dan selalu berfikiran positif walaupun payah.

Dan, inshaaAllah semuanya okay!

Dear May,

Dear May, please be wonderful.

(Teluk Senangin, Perak)

Assalamualaikum. Rasanya dah lama sungguh tak meng-update blog ni. So, ini lah dia. So many things happened, but i won't tell you now. Maybe later or maybe not at all. But nevermind, let's just move forward and outward! There's lot more things to do. Banyak, sangat banyak.

A lot of things i've actually learnt this week. It was just actually from a small problem. But the impact was like WOW!

Since i am the NYDP for the archidinner this semester, a lot of things i have to do. To make sure all the AJKs do their works. I hate being such a 'bossy' person so i will , inshaaAllah, be working together with them. TOGETHER! Nak cari sponsor lagi. Decoration, media, invitation, lagi lagi lagi dan lagi? Hmmm.

Belum lagi benda benda ni selesai, tambah lagi dengan masalah lain. Tapi ini agak personal. So, tak payah lah  lah kot cerita.Dan, benda benda ni semua menyerabutkan kepala dan terus membawa diriku untuk ber-tweeter. I tweeted a a lot by the way. And the all the tweets had left question marks to all the people who read them. And the part that i love is that i am being surrounded by my friends, who will always be there for me. Tak pernah putus putus bagi nasihat. Alhamdulillah.

So, basically, that was the summary of what happened in April. Not so much to tell but yeah. Bye bye April and i really hope that this May, would bring me happiness, glory, exciting, and all the positive vibes. InshaaAllah, amin :)

Hello MAY! :)

Congratulations Sister!

Assalamualaikum. How are you guys doing? Feeling good? Great!

Im sorry for not updating this blog daily, or maybe more often. Because i barely have time to write and all. But, dont get misunderstood. I love blogging so much.

And now, i am going to tell you guys about my sister's ( Nasrin ) result. Last 22 March 2013 which was on Thursday, she got her result announced at SMS Seri Puteri Kuala Lumpur.

I was not with her but my mum did. My dad was also having his meeting. So Nasrin went only with my one and only Mama.

Alhamdulillah, she got GREAT and EXCELLENT result. I t was actually beyond her target but not that far. As so ours! We were so happy and surprised at the same time. Anyhow, congratulations angah. I knew it form the start that you will succeed this far. You are a smart girl since back then. No doubt. All your hardwork has paid off!

What you have to do now is look forward and go beyond! Apply wahatever you want to apply. Be a great dentist, InshaaAllah, Allah will ease anything that you do. Dont forget Him. I know lah you are better than me. But yeah, Good Luck in your future! :D

OH RESULT!

Assalamualaikum.

What has you guys been up to? Fun or the other way round ? Okay, whatever it is, have fun doing whatever you are doing right now. Say alhamdulillah everyday  :D

So, okay, last Friday, on the 15th of February, i just received my result through email. You dont know how was it feel! Nervous ! A lot! soo, " Butterflies in the stomach"!

So, i slowly opened the email, andddddddd saw my result.
Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, praise to Allah! :D I got 3.53 for my pointer.I got into the Dean's List. Alhamdulillah. I was so speechless at that time. Cause , i think you know, well, i complained a lot about this course, not just a lot but TOO MUCH.

I did really think that i couldnt go further with this course. Like seriously. And i didnt expect that i could get this much for my result this first sem. Even its just kind of on the border line but still! Haha

This can really make a good starter for my next semester. InshaaAllah, i ll make my parents proud of me. Always.

Foxy Circlet

This is the one that i told you about. My business! Friendship bracelets business and yeah i wanna share with you some odbthe designs and stuff! :D Yeayyy. Ill upload the bracelets with the code later. And yeahh go visit our instagram : @foxy_circlet!  :D

Hello!

My tittle will always be as short as usual.  Hahaha well yeah. Just want to write a bit of what i did since last week.

Fyi, ive been up to a business. What? A business? Yes it is. And im loving it. I guess so. Hahaha its a friendship bracelets business. It was 'founded' by me. Ceh ceh ceh. Well, the story begins like this.

While i was waiting for my SPM result, yang resultnya tak seberapa, i thought of working at an exclusive place where i can get paid for a quite high salary. But hmm,  berangan je lah. I also thought of working at the franchises shop like Secret Recipe, Tuttti Frutti or Subway. And yes, i went to those for interview except for Subway. Alhamdulillah. I got the vacancy but after i had few discussions with my mum and my dad. Seems like they dont allow me to work at that kind of you know, its tiring to treat people, to take orders and so much more work to do in a day. And it must be sooooo tiring. So yeah i didnt take the job.

So, my life goes onnn. Cehh. Haha what i ended to was, working at Kumon. Which is tuition centre. At first, i thought it would be boring working at that kind of place. Well you know teaching kids and stuff which i am not that expert at teaching. But nevermind. Heh heh heh. Besides, the salary offered was not that 'Wow' . It was only rm 2.50 per hour if im not mistaken. And we only need to work three times a week and in a day, we will be working only for 5 hours. If you total it up, its not worth it at all.

But what i gained by working there was, the experience of being called a teacher by your own students which is the best feeling ever, i guess. Haha. You feel that you are so much respected by people. Haha so i guess i know why some people really wanted to be a teacher besides teaching. If you know what i mean.

About 3 months of working there, i think i already had enough. Cehb poyo. Hahaha what i really meant was actually, i quit from that job because i dont think that the salary is worth it. Cis, such a gold digger. Haha no lah. Then, eversince i quitted my job, i started making friendship which was just for fun at first.

After one type of designs was posted on instagram, one friend of kine suggested, why not if i sell those bracelets.

So, that was how i started my business. And it is so far so good. Alhamdulillah.

You can visit my instagram : @foxy_circlet to see the designs and if you want to purchase those, just whatsapp me at 0133805235! :)

Thank you. Assalamualaikum.

Here goes my second cover

I ain't use any instrument but only a cup. So here you goes. I ll hope you enjoy ! :D

Just a simple Hi

Assalamualaikum for the muslims and Hello to the non-muslims reader.

its been soooo long since the last i uptaded my blog. Well i have been too busy and was not in the mood to blog. I dont know. Its just me. You cant never predict me. Its hard. Even my mum told me so.

Hmm well, a lot of things happened to me. Now, we are already in the new year of 2013. And i dont think i have any resolutions to make. Whaaat. I think that im so lifeless right now. Oh by the way, im on my sem break. What to do what to do. I planned so many things right before the break. To do this and this but now, i dont think i will make it to any one of them. Haha that's normal i think.

Hmmm, i felt so lifeless. Bored. I felt that everything was just not on the right track. EVERYTHING. And i saw my laptop, watched some videos and yeah, and now im updating my blog. 

Bye.

THIS BLOG IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION. TQ

Hard Life?

Assalamualaikum. It 12.43 am. And i feel like writing. So here we go.

The things that i wanted to share with you is about my life at Seri Iskandar, Perak. Its not easy as i though it would be. Its hard.
Just few days ago, right after i got back from home. I feel empty. Nothing else i could think other than home, family and everything that i have left in Shah Alam.

When it comes to re-do ing the assignments, i feel like quitting. The only thing that keep on playing on my mind was 'IM QUITTING'. Nothing else. Well thats not enough. It was so stressful. I felt suffocate.I hate doing all the assignments. I got no person to talk to. NO PERSON!  Friends? What can they actually do? They can but only by advising that sometimes seems not sincere at all. Im sorry.

I dont want to tell my mum about all this because i dont want her to be worried about me. But i have no choice. So, i told her what my problems were. Only my mum could make me feel calm. Nobody else. I couldnt help myself staying there. Roommates? Coursemates? And all that matter! And the course itself.

A-R-C-H-I-T-E-C-T-U-R-E

And it needs a lot of hardworking! No sleep at night? That is for sure. No doubt.
Passionate is all what you have to be.
Be strong physically and MENTALLY!

Im not yet matured enough to be an architecture student, i think. But i will keep on trying. There is no choice. I have to get through all this with full of commitment and patience. InsyaaAllah.


I may not be the best student. But, i will always try to give my very best.